I run in circles:

Rushing in where others fear to tread




No matter how I try to outspeed time, I found myself running and never even making a single step.

Making mistakes is human nature. We have inherited that from Adam and Eve, and there's no getting away from it. No matter how many times you bathe in holy water, you won't be able to get rid of the mass fate of being a sinner.

Yes, we tend to make things go the wrong way. We cut the wrong rope, step into the broken steps, turn the wrong direction, type the wrong words, click the wrong buttons, send messages to the wrong person, confide secrets with enemies and blabbermouths, apply jobs that don't suit us, sing out of tune, ride on a bus going to a different route, love the person that we're better off without, and live the life we'd rather not have. We get into all these troubles. It's something human, like we tend to be pulled by gravity into doing the things we should do the least.

I, for one, have been through an open-ended-roller-coaster ride of committing faults that I only realize when everything is over. I should have been awarded for being consistent in my craft of taking the wrong road in my life's journey. That is something I couldn't and wouldn't change.

I chose to hurt the wrong people. I do things that would eventually lead me to a bad situation. I fight back whenever my mom scolds me when I get home really late back in college. I meet the wrong people. I messed up with the wrong professors, although I sort of not regret it, ending with them getting it back to me through grades. I fail in getting what I really want. I plan the wrong way. I aim for things just when it is way too late. I set up erroneous priorities. I prefer temporary happiness to avoid pain, only to be hurt as soon as the happiness is over. I stumbled and chose to give up. I do things without second thought and regret them in the end. I search for answers for the wrong questions. I seize the moment just when the time isn't right or when the moment is over.

However, had I been given the rare chance to erase this faults I have committed and been committing, I would decline the offer. Yes, I have done worse than you could imagine. My life is already tainted with wrongdoings and shortcomings. Yet, I couldn't bear a perfect life in exchange of erasing those memories. I don't need a perfectly colored masterpiece. I'd rather have my picture splashed with unequally painted and not-so-matching colors. They make the masterpiece out of it.

The thing is, we are doomed to commit faults, but that mere fact is the only thing that holds us from being perfectly human. Being human is about not being perfect. That's the perfect state of being human.

Imperfections are those colors that seem not to match our own portraits. They make our daily living action packed. They make life a whole lot of fun.

Yet, don't devour too much with how our faults get the excitement all out. Faults are never an excuse to do the wrong things. They are not a free pass or a ride-all-you-can ticket to triumph.

The score behind making mistakes is the process of learning that it tries to inculcate in all of us. We would only commit the same mistakes over and over again if we would not apply what we learn from the previous faults.We would only run in circles and get nowhere.

We are entitled to do wrong things so we could learn to correct them. Yes, it would be a very dreadful process of learning, but that is how exactly we are going to learn. We usually find it hard to forget those lessons we learn the hard way, right?

Thus, in your quest in this battlefield of life, do not be afraid to get lost along the way. Don't be frustrated whenever you fail. In fact, failing will help you succeed. Go and chase every opportunity to make mistakes. Try shortcuts and detours. Beware of traps, but it's alright if you get caught by one, just so you'll know how those traps work. After that, you won't be falling into one ever again.


Don't get mad when the world is throwing stones at you so that you'll fall. Falling sometimes would keep you going.

Run in circles until you learn.